Ajai Raj: My fucking hero.
It’s about GOD DAMNED time, Cliff.
6 new pages. I think I may exlode with jo0-0-0-\\sdaksdfbaosdjboom. Look I just did.
Happy Happy Joy Joy
Hello everyone!
I’ve been busy with work and projects lately and I’ve also been limiting my online time so I can be more productive at work. It has paid off.
At work in in the niche I want to be and there is money to purchase the equipment I need to better administer a real infrastructure (finally). The Tiki Crawl is in full gear and rolling along quite nicely. I’ll be writing music (intro/outro) for a friend’s TV pilot he is working on. Plus, Spring is looking lovely here in Portland, the best little city in all the world. (I’m a bit biased.)
To top it off, I got a haircut on the way home last night. Next weekend we’ll be in L.A. for the Erasure show and other fun (Thanks, Cindy!).
So, things are looking up and I’m savoring the moment.
wee
Your Houses finished on gluttony — you want that I should queue up some more (like the episode we missed?)
-=C
LOST tonight
Mark & Maggie are inviting us for a group LOST viewing at their place tonight…
Last Batch
I think those are all — if I missed someone (this weekend has been crazy) please let me know and I’ll finish up! 😀
suthernboyinca:
1.) As far as people go, do you tend to have certain “types” that you find irresistably attractive (and I mean this in the sense of finding compelling friendships as well as the more racy stuff) or are you more of a global appreciator?
The ability to separate one’s self from one’s opinions I find extremely attractive. Intellectualism (that is not conceited or egotistical) I also find attractive. Most attractive are those who have a quick wit and combine those two into a wry semi-self deprecating humility. It makes a strong connection with me. Other than that I find I can usually be a global appreciator, but those who I connect with usually stick around with me longer as friends: The compassionate and understanding.
2) Tell me about your first love.
Person or concept? I don’t really “believe” in love per se: I mean, it’s this complex concept/phenomena. As I describe it, I can List some of my loves, but they do tie so closely into obsession. To keep it simple, I’ll list people and ideas (in semi-chronological order):
Disney
Disneyland
Ireland
Irish Gaelic
Celitcism
Paganism
Bach
Baroque Music
Cooking
Tolkien
Mixology
Portland
3) Was there a specific event that lead to your understanding your bisexuality? If so, what was it?
You know, I can’t really think of any – When I do think about it backwards, I can connect pieces, like “oh, yes, I did have a crush on Rick Schroeder – Ah, so *that’s* why I loved “stand by me”, etc. But a defining moment of epiphany eludes me. I should also add I never went through any strong phases of self-denial. For a long time I was outwardly asexual (as I never thought I would have any relationship with another person), but interanally very accepting of my private sexuality.
4) Do you have a fetish? If so what is it?
The only thing approaching a fetish would be my fondness for money shots and all that they produce. Not really a fetish though.
5) What do you think is the biggest challenge in your primary relationship?
The constant analyzing of trying to know and understand mypartner as to anticipate her needs, wants, desires, and reasoning. Working on communication to avoid second-guessing or falsely interpeting vague or ambiguous messages.
And the biggest challenge is treating my partner as I wish to be treated; fighting selfishness and egotism.
3appleshigh:
1) i know that you are physically bi-sexual, but on an emotional level are there different kinds of things you get from women than you do from men?
I don’t think so. I used to think that – that I could only find emotional support from a woman but meeting
2) what made you leave san francisco?
The bay area was becoming too much like L.A. We never could have afforded to purchase a house anywhere near the level of community we wanted (and maintain our lifestyle); I was tired of being that far from a cultural center (we lived in Petaluma). Change was moving in, so we moved out.
3) you mention that you do not believe in god(s). do you believe in spirituality and if so, how do you define it?
I only belive in spirituality as a human concept; much like “freedom” or “love” or “Santa Claus.” I understand the human emotion of feeling “in-tune” with the world around you: it can be produced through many different methods: Prayer, Fasting, Drugs, Hiking — there is a “god” section of the brain – this has helped and harm us to varying degrees throughout the developement of our species. This doesn’t follow for me that God exisits; just as I don’t believe Love exisits as an external concept or one to use as judgement like you would something physical. That is, to treat these ephemeral abstract concepts as a concrete is an anethma to me. For instance, I experience ‘sprirual’ moments while camping, listening to or playing music, during sex, smoking out, etc. I personally do not expand those outside of my own grey matter, though – it’s all in my head.
4) just for fun, the ever ethical question: if you could go back in time and kill Hitler before he rose to power, would you?
Nope. Ends never justify means because the outcome of complex interactions like this are unknowable: Killing Hitler may lead to worse suffereing, for example. Since the wise do not know all ends, the correct choice for me is do always do the “right” thing, ignoring any “possible” outcome (within reason, etc.). I do not kill (unless directly forced with a decision of self-survivial, I’m sure) so Hitler lives. (If that sucker came at me with knife though, I’d pop a cap in his ass.)
5) what is your ideal “type” if any? if no specific type, than a recurring fantasy model.
Male: Floppy Short hair, Stocky, Large hands and Eyes. Think “puppy.” Any of those Hobbits would do quite nicely.
Female: Strong Features, strong attitude, opinionated, tomboyish, forthright, steadfast. Think the bride (Uma) from Kill Bill.
First 2 Interviews
I’m forgoing the whole meme part (it’s really getting long in the tooth now) but if you do want an interview, I’m happy to oblige.
Robkaiote:
1.) What do you miss most about the Bay area now that you’re no longer in it? What do you miss least about living here?
I most miss first my friends who still live there, old and new. Next I miss the castro. There is no third nor other things to miss. I miss least the creeping rat-race non-community-minded car-driving culture that is slowly consuming it from the south to the north. The bay area is slowly becoming L.A. The disease is spreading and I’m trying to get away from it.
2.) How did you and your lovely wife meet and end up together?
Heather and I met through my high-school friend
3.) What’s your dream job? Dream life?
Dream Job? Not working. (or working on creative interests). Dream life? I’m living it now: Lucky Me. 😉 Well, I suppose I could use a bit more of a financial cusion for following creative interests, but without the challenge, what art could I produce? I am the man I wanted to be when I grew up. Minus a few pounds here and there, naturally.
4.) Let’s throw it on the table – are you guys planning on exercising the procreative option? Nosy people always want to know the answer to that question…
We may be; It seems looming on the horizon lately. Our children will likely hate us though – we’re going to be “old people” parents!
5.) What do you find attractive in a woman? In a man?
Well, that’s a large issue — ultimately, the ability to separate one’s self from mundanities through humour, humility, and wry-self deprecation are very attractive. Fun-loving and self-reliance are also attractive. A nice ass and kind eyes and I’m gone.
Gabeysf:
1. Best orgasm. (Yeah, I’m a horny motherfucker.)
Well, they are all damn good. I don’t know if I can think of a ‘best,’ but amongst the best are those that arrive after a nice long slow BJ. They ones that make my toes curl and go numb. Best served after a lovely relaxing bowl of nature’s green kindness.
2. Most interesting thing that’s happened to you on a road trip.
Heather and I went to “Tiki Oasis 2002” in Palm Springs and didn’t really have that much fun – they people there were boring and just average drunkards who just happened apon “tiki,” etc. Also it was a 3-day affair that rolled up sunday morning. (they should have made it a 2-day affair. So with a flight back to the bay area on Monday morning from ontario airport, party gone sour on sunday morning and a rented range rover with a GPS, Heather and I decided to do the only sensible thing: VEGAS, BABY! We drove to vegas, made reservations at the aladin on the way, and drank & partied all night with one of the only fun people at Tiki Oasis (who happened to live in LV). We got in at about 9pm, were out till `4 AM, slept till 7, got up, drove back to Ontario and flew home. —-Good Times—-
3. Pick a major decision you made in the past and tell me how you think your life would have turned out if you had made a different decision then.
Well, in 2001 I was out of work having the dot-com I worked for in SF crash and burn and was desparate for employment. I had just been hired at Fair Isaac and got an interview at PIXAR. I chose to decline the interview and stayed at Fair Isaac. Had I gone to PIXAR, I would have likely become a bigger wage-slave, spent less time at home, possibly moved to the city or east bay (Heather was at lucasfilm then). I don’t know how it would have turned out, but I look at the seeming success of that compared with where I am now and I consider it missing a bullet. (though perhaps a decpetively attractive bullet, a bullet none-the-less: because both H and I were unhappy in our jobs and had early mid-life-cris
4. Any fetishes? 😉
Money Shots. Though a fondness, not really a fetish. Oh and hipbones and nice asses. Not fetshes though. So – no fetishes yet.
5. Who inspired you growing up?
Mythmakers: I had a fondness for Hans Christian Anderson, Steven Spielberg, Star Trek (TOS reruns on the local station), Walt Disney (and Disneyland, my #1 obsession for a LONG time), which turned into a Tolkien inspiration in late High School.
Tuesday
I’d like to do a little game-get-together tuesday at Noel & kims with us and Devin, playing that haunted house game. Is that ok with you?
I’ll relax when I’m dead
Great weekend with my mum, lots of stuff done, busy at work, full social schedule.
Weee!
I’m going to carve some time today to answer all the lovely interview questions and perpetuate the dreaded meme, stay tuned.
In other news, now have 2 thai dishes under my culinary belt:
1. Pad Thai
2. Pad See-ew
I next will attempt to conquer Pad ga praw (my favourite)
My mum is here
I’ll be answering all my nifty interview questions this weekend when I get some time – Today I’m taking my mom to the rose gardens and then Multnomah falls if we have time.
Have a great friday!
