THREE (nick)NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Cute
2. Puffin
3. Monkey
1. The Wild Hooligan
2. Melintur
3. Elenadan
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I can adapt/assimilate knowledge easily
2. I am sturdy
3. Sense of Humor
THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I am a pushover
2. I overanalyze
3. I have rarely felt comforatble with being alive
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Russian
2. Polish/German
3. Danish
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Other people
2. Mortality
3. Impossibility of true objectivity
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Fun
2. Coffee
3. Social Interaction
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Chipped chrome nail polish
2. Stripey stocking-cap
3. Cloth belt
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE BANDS OR ARTISTS (at the moment and always):
1. J. R. R. Tolkien
2. J. S. Bach
3. Edward Gorey
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Sleigh Ride
2. Santa’s Secret
3. What are you Doing New Year’s Eve?
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. To play with other musicians
2. To go to Amsterdam and then to Eastern Europe
3. To host a dinner party
THREE IRONIES THAT YOU DWELL ON:
1. The human need to control others to change one’s perception of reality
2. Man’s return to holding true in the face of the fallacy of ends justifying means
3. Man’s ignoring testable and predictory reality in favour of feelings and ad-hoc reasoning
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. There is a certain wide angle to the hips
2. Natural Chest
3. Butts, man. Butts.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE SAME SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. “goofy-yet-striking” facial features: Strong|button nose, pronounced cheekbones|chin, large eyes, DSL lips, etc.
2. Strong hands
3. Hipbones / that groinal “v.”
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN’T DO:
1. Contain my pansexuality
2. Feel comfortable around straight(read homophobic/macho/unfeeling) men
3. Entertain concrete aesthetics
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1. Cooking
2. Gaming
3. Entertaining/Socializing
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Do something widely irresponsible without any resulitng negative consequences
2. Bake Christmas cookies
3. Relax in front of fire with a board game, heather, friends, winter-style ale, and a fine grade of drinking T.
THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING:
1. High School Teacher
2. Caretaker|Hostellier|Host
3. Craftsman
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO:
1. Amsterdam | Europe
2. South Pacific
3. Brazil
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Be a grandfather
2. Produce a ‘piece of work’ I can be self-satisfied with.
3. Hike and camp a long-ish mountain trail (John Muir specifically, Roman road in Britain, or other international one will suffice)
I think you forgot one.
I’ll fix that right away. I was thinking formal names, not nicknames.
3. I have rarely felt comfortable with being alive
Life by its nature seems to be discomfiting for most of us. Our nature seems to make it necessary to invent the methods whereby we might find comfort, individually. The process seems even more difficult for those ‘more interesting, more complex, more appealing’ sorts in whom I find such value. I don’t really know you, but I do send sympathy and some solidarity there.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Other people
I hear ya there.
2. Mortality
From what I have read of you, and what has said, I gather that you are an ideological advocate for biochemical determinism. Why then fear mortality? Cellular death, leading towards organismal mortality, is a fundamental process of that which lives. It is an anticipatable given…
*shrug* I’ve always taken a certain comfort in mortality. It provides reliable conclusion, a point at which one might stop. It is unavoidable, even if one wanted to avoid it, and this fact can free one to focus instead upon one’s manner of living, presently… ?
3. Impossibility of true objectivity
Again, I’ve always found this one to be comforting – although certain parties’ attempts to claim they represent objectivity stimulates much eye-rolling. If questions of perspective and personal bias are present, and by nature self-generated, then in theory one can go a long way towards understanding the self and what we inject through our internal creations. Understanding how we interpret that which is perceived can also influence our more holist comprehension of it…. ?
Well, I had to come up with something for #2 and #3!
That said, I also take comfort partly in both 2&3. Doesn’t change that they occasionally scare me in their abysmality.
That’s fair!
2. I overanalyze
No such thing!
3. I have rarely felt comforatble with being alive
What do you mean by that?
3. Impossibility of true objectivity
Why does this scare you?
1. The human need to control others to change one’s perception of reality
Oooo! Good one. **high-fives
3. Man’s ignoring testable and predictory reality in favour of feelings and ad-hoc reasoning
Must get you The Origin of Consciousness and the Breakdown of the Bicameral Mind by Julian Jaynes.
1. Contain my pansexuality
Excellent!
3. Entertain concrete aesthetics
What do you mean by this?
1. High School Teacher
**alarmed look
2. Produce a ‘piece of work’ I can be self-satisfied with.
What would it be?
That’s cool, I learned some new things about you!
I have been wanting to do this meme for a while now. I guess I must.
3. I have rarely felt comforatble with being alive
What do you mean by that?
I have a poor sense of self and self image; I am uncomfortable at ‘being’ any reflection of live humanity and life is uncomforatble… I don’t know how more to discribe it. I don’t like me; any reflection of me makes me uncomfortable at base. I’ve grown in leaps and bounds to overcome this; I still don’t like it about myself, which of course, re-feeds into it. My learned ways to overcome this at times make me feel manipulative and a liar (which is false, of course.) Can’t help but feel that way.
3. Impossibility of true objectivity
Why does this scare you?
Dunno, just does. Relates to discomfort at infinity.
3. Entertain concrete aesthetics
What do you mean by this?
I mean I cannot agree/hold the opinion in the superiority (in a concrete sense) of a particular aesthetic — i.e. static rules of what is ‘good’ and ‘bad’ art, etc…
2. Produce a ‘piece of work’ I can be self-satisfied with.
What would it be?
Well, if I knew it would be a starter, wouldn’t it? Something creative and lasting that I would feel content with: song, art, etc… I don’t know – likely it is my perception that is holding me up.
Oh, and how can you not love your perfect sense of filthy humor?
oh yeah
My learned ways to overcome this at times make me feel manipulative and a liar (which is false, of course.) Can’t help but feel that way.
It’s like the imposter syndrome?
3. Impossibility of true objectivity
Why does this scare you?
Dunno, just does. Relates to discomfort at infinity
Could scare you because it suggest you cannot access something that is “true”?
I mean I cannot agree/hold the opinion in the superiority (in a concrete sense) of a particular aesthetic — i.e. static rules of what is ‘good’ and ‘bad’ art, etc…
That’s because every one that’s ever been constructed has holes in it.
Well, if I knew it would be a starter, wouldn’t it? Something creative and lasting that I would feel content with: song, art, etc… I don’t know – likely it is my perception that is holding me up.
How can you be satisfied with something you create if you are not “satisfied” with yourself? If you view yourself, the vessle of your creativity, as flawed, I don’t like me;, then you will likely reject everything you produce as flawed on the grounds that because you are flawed you cannot only produce flawed art. It’s like you want to create something you are content with so that you won’t feel bad about yourself, but you will reject what you create on the grounds that you are flawed (feel bad about yourself for a legitimate reason).
“There’s nothin’ wrong with the bloody thing!”
–Scotty, Star Trek V, The Undiscovered Country, when asked if the warp engines were causing a localized nuetrino surge.
Could scare you because it suggest you cannot access something that is “true”?
No, it is more the uncomprehensibility of uncomprehesibility – hall of mirrors, infinity stuff.
How can you be satisfied with something you create if you are not “satisfied” with yourself?
Yeah, I suspect that’s the issue. Of course, knowing it’s bunk doesn’t really stop me from feeling it, emotions being the irrational things they are (which is to say I view them as incredibly complex as to appear irrational).
I do ok with coping, depending on mood.
knowing it’s bunk
I hope that doesn’t mean you trivialize how you feel (in an attempt to make it go away).
emotions being the irrational things they are
Emotions are irrational. Pretty literally, I think-feel 😀 I don’t think-feel that makes them less signficant and it doesn’t seem that you do either.
I do ok with coping
Hmmmm. I think you said that to terminate the discussion because you are at a loss as to what to do about it next.
“There’s nothin’ wrong with the bloody thing!”
–Scotty, Star Trek V, The Undiscovered Country, when asked if the warp engines were causing a localized nuetrino surge.
Well, I at least don’t feel like thinking to hard about it right now… 😀
“How can you be satisfied with something you create if you are not “satisfied” with yourself? If you view yourself, the vessle of your creativity, as flawed, I don’t like me;, then you will likely reject everything you produce as flawed on the grounds that because you are flawed you cannot only produce flawed art. It’s like you want to create something you are content with so that you won’t feel bad about yourself, but you will reject what you create on the grounds that you are flawed (feel bad about yourself for a legitimate reason).”
That is prolly the best way I’ve ever heard this presented! What a wonderful statement you have made!
Craig, if I might suggest “The Artist’s Way” by Julia Cameron. It’s kind of for the “wounded artist” but I think you might find it helpful. I have a copy I can send to you if you like.
I’ll molest you later, then. **smile
What a wonderful statement you have made!
Thanks 🙂