I did a harsh and strong thing today
(I’m using real names beacuse I hate the “a friend” and other vague dumb things)
Shadesong is going through difficult times right now, and I feel that those who I believe to be “the voice of reason” are cycling through the same old arguments and advice and suggestions that have been over and through time and time again to no avail.
I personally cannot continue to be witness to the downward spiral when I feel that my attention and help and suggestions are being tossed aside.
I am drained — It is time to pull back. It is often said that an addict must hit rock bottom before change is made. I do believe that ‘song is addicted to her mental imbalances and does not wish to get better because she owns her disease, so these steps I take as a kind of tough love, but also for my own mental health.
I can’t be party to the self-abuse any longer, so I have removed her as a friend and banned her from commenting in my journal.
I don’t hate her, I haven’t removed her as a friend in my mind, only this online space. I’ll answer one-on-one email, etc..
I’ll be happy to re-add her to LJ when she is willing to be responsible to seek professional help in whatever form it may take — I’m not “signing off” anybody.
I’m always open to discussion and information, and always willing to “change my mind,” but I cannot continue the emotional vampire-ness of the depression cycle.
Besides, It will give me more time for useful communication with those on LJ who I haven’t had enough time with.
Best wishes to all,
-=C
UPDATE: On careful thought, I have un-banned shadesong from commenting. I wanted to stave off a choatic discussion on my journal before we talked one-on-one about it. I realize now I should have done it temporarrily only. So I have decided to un-ban her, though it is likely she won’t post anyway, which is a shame.